Novel Rating 5/5 ⭐️
Our very notion of humanity is interlocked with the ability to feel – empathy and passion give birth to our solidarity as humans. Through our spectrum of emotion we’re united. So why is the darkness taboo when we all feel it? Why is sadness secret? This is one person removing the proverbial cat from the bag and holding it in stark light to portray the reality of it all – and hoping you find the courage to do the same, in your own way.
I actually won this cute little poetry book through a contest the author was holding! I honestly didn’t think I would win, I was trying my luck on a whim. This cute little book is like peering into someone’s diary, that’s basically the premise of it. The foundation as you will. Dark feelings reside here, along with heartache and loss, including secrets. I related to so much of it. Being able to relate to someone else’s thoughts and feelings makes you feel so much less like you’re alone. It makes things easier. With that being said, the title is a perfect fit for the theme. I’m so very happy I discovered this gem on instagram! Stacy is amazing and I can’t wait to see more work from her!
Also I waned to ask Stacy some questions regarding her work! So here’s a little author interview;
What inspires you?
There are many things. Mostly people. People I wish to be like, or cherish for their work or how they’ve chosen to take control of their life and make it something good. Writers in particular – they’re a different kind of people I think. Stephen Fry has been my inspiration for a long time; someone with intelligence, quick-wit and openness. Those traits served as inspiration for this book.
When did you first realize writing was an outlet for you?
Subconsciously when I was about 11. I hadn’t written anything for a long time and I found an old box from that age when I was venting. I was always very introvert. When I was 14 life got hard – it was a natural thing to get a pen out and fill books of the internal frustration and depression. I can articulate much more clearly through writing than I ever could speaking.
If you could change something in your life, what would it be?
I would have respected myself sooner.
What goals drive you?
To feel like I have reached one person. I could have published this book years ago but I always resisted due to my own fear of judgement. It took me only one day to ask ‘why do I really want to do this’ and when I thought of it, beneath the surface, it was to reach one person who may not be able to articulate what they feel but know that how they feel isn’t right.I wanted to provide something that this person could give to someone and say ‘this is how I feel’ and the conversation and the healing could start from there. One person is my goal.
Your favorite quote ever?
I’m definitely going to be greedy here and choose two:
‘Would you be in anyway offended if I said that you seem to me, to be the visible personification of absolute perfection?’ – Oscar Wilde
‘It’s not all bad. Heightened self-consciousness, apartness, an inability to join in, physical shame and self-loathing – they are not all bad. Those devils have been my angels. Without them I would have never disappeared into language, literature, the mind, laughter and all the mad intensities that made and unmade me’ – Stephen Fry.
It is something quite special to know that what has hurt you for so long and still afflicts you can also help you in living a creative life.
What is your favorite excerpt from your own novel? What story does it hold behind it?
The piece is called ‘Kim’ it’s about my best friend. It’s really an appreciation piece – over the last ten years she has been the one person that I can call in the middle of an emotional storm and she be okay with it. Once I had let her into all my darkness, she never let it be the only thing she saw. And that was huge. It’s important to have someone consistent in your life; she has always been that for me
‘She knew me beyond my actions
Beyond my shallow attempts at happiness
She knew I had darkness
And when I undressed
And showed her what I was made of
Knowing I was unrepairable
And said ‘I’ll be here for you anyway’
Any current projects taking place?
Yes, definitely. My website is almost live and this will have all the information on upcoming projects when I’m allowed to share them. Predominantly I’m working on a second book – Notes to Self was a very particular time in my life. The next one will hold much more variety.
An excerpt from Notes to Self
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